Trusting God With Your Tomorrows

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On the far side of a desert, high upon the Mountain of God, a voice called out to Moses from within a curious, fiery bush. He had been tending the sheep of his father-in-law’s flock – minding his own business – going about his normal day-in-day-out tasks on the day that God spoke to him from the flames. On the day that God called Moses to a fresh and fiery mission. A mission of deliverance.

Once a noble prince of Egypt with the world at his feet, he had become a lowly shepherd with dust on his sandals. His crown had been traded in for a staff. The palace days were far behind Moses now. He fled them because of what he had done. Glancing to his left and right to be sure that no one would know what he was about to do, Moses took a horrible situation into his own hands and killed a man. He murdered an Egyptian and covered the death with sand.

Fear and shame bombarded his heart so he fled – away from his dream-filled, royal future to a desert place of humble hiding. The door to his yesterdays was closed. Moses had moved on to a new place. His past was his past and he had no intentions of returning to it. His life was different now. Normal, not noble.

Then God interrupted Moses’ new normal. He made it undeniably clear that His plans for Moses were different. Bigger. God’s intentions were for freedom – the freedom of His people, the Israelites, who were captives – slaves to Egypt. God called Moses to face the pains of his past so that the Israelites could face a future of freedom. His plans of emancipation required that Moses obey Him, listen to His voice, follow His instructions and trust Him.

Moses quivered and doubted. He made excuses about why he couldn’t do it. He felt completely unfit and unqualified for such a task. It was risky. But God met Moses at his doubts. He called him to courage and went on to use Moses as an instrument of deliverance, truth, power and freedom. Yes – Moses made mistakes along the way, but God was powerful in, through and in spite of each one. Through it all, God led as only God can. He led with power. He led with purpose. He led with love. And through Moses, God led His people to a new place of promise and freedom.

On the far side of Charlotte, North Carolina, high upon a mountain in a retreat center, a voice called out to me from within a curious and fiery story. I had been tending to my husband and children, to the laundry and the dishes – writing songs and leading worship at women’s events – minding my own business – going about my normal day-in-day-out tasks on the day that God spoke to my heart from the testimony of another woman. On the day that God called me to a fresh and fiery mission. A mission of deliverance.

Once a sold-out, dream-filled God-girl, I had become a grace-embracing, yet disqualified-for-anything-big-because-of-what-I-had-done God-girl. My use-me-in-a-big-way-Lord prayers had been traded in for average, can’t-have-a-dream-anymore faith-living. My God-dream days were far behind me. I had fled them because of what I had done in my junior year of college. Glancing to my left and right to be sure that no one would know what I was about to do, I took a horrible situation – an unplanned pregnancy – into my own hands and killed a baby. I robbed my baby of life when I had an abortion and covered the death of my precious child with sands of compartmentalizing and reason.

Fear and shame bombarded my heart, so I fled – away from God – away from my dream-filled, royal future to a desert place of heart-hiding. After a season of brokenness, God brought me to a place of beauty, forgiveness and healing. I was restored and redeemed by scandalous, merciful grace. But then the door to my yesterdays was closed. I moved on to a new place in Christ. My past was my past and I had no intentions of returning to it – or to the God-dreams that swelled my heart as a young, sold-out Jesus lover. My life was different now. Normal, not dream-worthy.

Then God interrupted my new normal. He made it undeniably clear that His plans for me were different. Bigger. God’s intentions were for freedom – the freedom of His people, the women, who were captives – slaves to their life-wounds. God called me to face the pains of my past so that my Girlfriends in God might face a future of freedom when they hear my testimony. His plans of emancipation required that I obey Him, listen to His voice, follow His instructions and trust Him.

I quivered and doubted. I made excuses about why I couldn’t do it. I felt completely unfit and unqualified for such a task. It was risky. But God met me at my doubts. He called me to courage and is using my broken-into-beautiful story as an instrument of deliverance, truth, power and freedom. Yes – I make mistakes along the way, but God is powerful in, through, and in spite of each one. Through each surrendered day, God is leading as only He can. With power – with purpose – with love. And I pray right now that this story – my story – will bring you to a new place of promise and freedom through the grace of Jesus Christ.

What fresh and fiery mission is God calling you to trust Him with, friend? Let me encourage you to stop with the excuses. I’m living proof that God will free anyone from her shame and can use anyone for His purpose. Step up to the burning bush – into God’s presence. Listen to His voice. Obey. Follow. Take courage. Trust Him with your past and with your tomorrows. Allow His grace and love to decide what your mission should look like.

But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.
Exodus 9:16, NIV

Dear God, With a trembling heart, I approach Your throne of grace today in reverence and humility – fully aware that You are holy and I am not. Speak, Lord. Show me the plans you have for me. Bind me to Your Word and to Your strength so I will have the courage to obey. May my brokenness be restored for the beauty of Your glory. Please help me to trust You with my today and tomorrows. In Jesus’s name, amen.

 

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Comments 46

  1. I’m stuck in a place where everyday I wake up wondering what my God purpose is. I have an incredible husband (though his spiritual walk is sometimes that of me dragging him kicking and screaming :), I have three beautiful daughters (one going into 11th grade, one graduating in a few weeks and one graduated from college and in the work force). They are all three incredible young ladies with beautiful hearts. Bout life has been a crazy winding road of complete chaos and dysfunction that makes no sense to me most days and I just hold on and try to be a strong example, though on the inside I am the weakest person (they do not know). I made so many bad choices at their age, but I keep those conversations at a minimal, because right now, they treat me like their hero and may not if they knew all the details. I love my job, but feel burnt out and as if I just walk in circles everyday. I feel we live in a world that is crumbling around us and I don’t know how to make a difference or help. I want to be brave and courageous but know that it would be hysterical to think I were some shinig example of anything. I feel unqualified in every aspect of my life. And then feel guilty that I ever remotely feel anything but grateful and happy for all of my undeserved blessings. I feel like I’m treading water when I would like to be an Olympic swimmer… But don’t know how to swim.

  2. The plan of my life is husband, kids, working part-time, and housekeeping. My boys are 8 & 10. I often feel like I have no idea what I am doing sometimes. My boys are trying my patience. Discouragement overcomes me and I struggle to trust in the Lord. You know how it is when you ask God for wisdom and He doesn’t let you know. I know God does things in His timing not mine. I love the Lord so much. I have been struggling with things of this life though. Please pray for me. For wisdom in parenting, energy, motivation, and encouragement. Thank you so much.

    1. Be encouraged Sis. You are right about one thing God does things in HIS time, and it’s always ON TIME! Don’t give up or don’t give in to the enemy of your soul. Remember he comes to steal, kill, and destroy. God has come so that we may have LIFE and have it more Abundantly.. Hold On and Be strong in the Lord and the power of HIS MIGHT
      !!! The Lord is mindful of your every need. He sees you and He knows exactly what you are going through.. There is POWER in the name of JESUS, to break every chain… I pray that the chains be broken off your life.. Life and death Is in the Power of your tongue, speak LIFE in Jesus Name! Be encouraged!!!

  3. Thank you so much for your encouraging piece. I need prayer because I have let fear and doubt overcome me. I feel God telling me to rise up but every time I think about it I just go into a state of fear especially of people. Please pray that I may have the courage that you had to let God use you to the fullest.

  4. I have come to reverence God in and for the “Broken”, most of my ministry is in the “Broken”, I once felt like I would never rise from this place, and now I understand that my rising is not in leaving this place called “Broken”, but is in the lifting of others, up out of it, it is then that my elevation occurs. I have met so many “Broken Vessels” in this place, MY PLEASURE TO SERVE.

  5. Gwen you are inspirational – I so look forward to your heartfelt lessons about God’s purpose in your life. I don’t even recall how I found you but I’m sure it was part of God’s plan in leading me back to him..

  6. Please pray for me. I have repented my sins in church. I am devastated as to what I have caused my family to go thru. I can never regain their trust. My sin may make me go to prison and leave my 5 beautiful children and my husband
    I am not the kind of person that has ever hurt anyone I have always tried to help my family and others but the Devils worked in my mind and took over making me believe I couldn’t let go I am remorse fully sorry and want to help others in my place somehow. Please pray that the judge will have mercy on me just as my lord and savior has. Please pray for my family they need it the most

  7. I’m sure your willingness to be open and vulnerable contributes to your effectiveness. Each time I hear your story, I am encouraged to be intentionally more open when in conversations, small groups or other moments of ministry with people. Love your writings, Gwen.

  8. Very powerful message. It took much courage and humility to write this article. The Lord reminded me not long ago that He took our shame on the cross. He was rejected…bore our sorrows greif and shame so that we don’t have to. Shame is huge in so many lives. So many men and women in our society have been rejected by parents, spouses and friends. This causes deep wounds of shame. For words spoken over us are the fiery darts of the enemy purposed to keep us looking down at the ground rather then up to our loving daddy. Left long enough these darts become shackles. He came to set the captives free!

  9. Thank you for this! The Lord has been telling me for some time to not be ashamed and afraid to tell my testimony, because my redemption through Jesus Christ in the midst of my shame is a wonderful praise of God’s love, mercy, and grace. For a very long time I was bound by drug/alcohol addiction, promiscuity, abusive relationships, suicidal actions, and much more. I felt for so long that my testimony was too dark, too distasteful to tell, especially to fellow Christians. I felt that people would look at me differently or that they wouldn’t believe me. Most of the people I know now didn’t get to meet the lost and completely broken girl that I was before I got saved. Not that I am whole now, but God has healed so many pains, hurts, shames, and rejections that littered my soul. Thank you LORD! I even felt that because my past was so dark that He couldn’t use me, but a week ago I finally let go of the shame of my past and grabbed on to the glory of my testimony. God has given me beauty for ashes and I cannot thank Him enough for having patience and compassion for me. And I want to let others know this same God! To let them know that He too is their God and that what He did for me He can and will do for them!

  10. I normally don’t write any comments or respond to majority of things online b/c …well I just don’t. However, today’s devotional really hit me and it felt like that God was reaching out to me. Going back to yesterday’s devotional I remember praying and all of a sudden I just started crying uncontrollably b/c of the shameful sins I had done especially one in particular. I have been carrying it with me, and felt so unworthy. I remember saying to God, “I know you love me and have forgiven me and think that I am worthy but I just can’t seem to let it go. I have tried but I don’t feel worthy though. Please help me to forgive myself and really let it go. Please help me.” Reading this devotional just hit me like no other. Usually i would think, “is this coincidence?” But then Gwen – you said – “some of you may feel this devotion was written specifically for you. Don’t ignore that. Explore it.” So I knew that was God telling me, “Don’t brush it off or doubt it like you always do. I am reaching out to you.” So thank you for opening up and providing this devotional. Thank you so much.

  11. God has redeemed me from bad decisions I made. The hard part is living with the consequence of my actions and how it impacted my children. For a long time I carried tremendous quilt on my children’s lives. Through sharing my story, I have found many believing mothers had their children having similar storks when they had been completely faithful to God. My life and how God has redeemed me is my mission field. This last year I have had great sadness over one of my children’s life. I believe this has brought me to jesus in a way I had never allowed before. I am one of those folks who think I can be my own controller. If you keep moving forward by reading the bible, praying giving it all to God he ll be faithful. I just can’t look for tomorrow because than anxiety comes back. It’s all about trusting God. Without knowing the outcome.

  12. Your writings are such an encouragement. I am at a point of searching for what God wants me to be doing now. I look forward to hearing more from you. Thank you and God bless you.

  13. Hi Gwen,

    Thank you for your testimony. God has given me a vision of his plan for me. There have been set backs or what I consider set backs. They have been God’s building blocks. I can see that now. What I am having trouble with is taking the next step. I don’t know what that is. Did you connect with a mentor or group of women already doing similar things?

  14. Gwen Your devotional Trusting God with your tomorrows really hit home. I have known for years my purpose is to take my painful past and use to help others move past their pain. I have written a book of my testimony My Pain Your Gain and give it out as much as possible. But I know God wants more from me. I feel he wants me to speak to women; but I have a fear of speaking in public so I battle this daily and I don’t know where to start to begin this path I know he wants me on. Your devotional today confirms that I need to give it to God and move past my fears. I’m still unsure but I know that he will cover me when the time comes. Thank you for your encouraging words. I ask that you keep me in your prayers so that I can stand up and use my Pain for someone elses gain.
    Staci Lee

  15. I pray for all women who struggle with guilt. I pray you see yourself how God sees you….beautiful and free. Vision a little girl running in a fresh pasture of daisies with a light linen dress…giggling and laughing while picking the flowers to smell the fragrance put there by God. That is you!
    I pray all women feel the grace filled freedom from God!
    You are loved

  16. You are a true inspiration always, your stories/testimonies always leave me thinking what more can I do! God’s grace seems to be pulling at me. Torn between another relationship that I don’t know what to do with , other than walk away. I’m 48 years old two grown children 3 grandchildren that I adore! Just constantly praying for guidance n always falling short! Thanks Gwen for your music n tsetimonies! God is good thru all that accept him n his greatness!

  17. I read your book and I have a similar story. I know that God is asking me to tell my story. The shame of an abortion can almost suffocate. I have lived this way for years. I really thank God that you told your story. Broken into Beautiful is a wonderful book. I really enjoy the GIG ministry. You are helping so many hurting women.

  18. My husband had a affair with a so called friend that I have known since I was 4. He knew for 30 years that I knew she was not a true friend. I was at the point that I no longer wanted to be friends with her since we had moved closer to her and I began to see how she used so many men. She was having a affair with a man that was in a committed relationship for over 10 years. I knew she was not the type of person I wanted to associate with but she continued to come over for almost 4 months everyday. My husband and her would call each other 5 times a day. I knew I could not trust her but I knew my husband also knew what a jealous person she was. We both knew she was always jealous that we had such a good marriage. We knew she was jealous cause I have a great relationship with all 6 of my children. Are marriage was not at its best at this time but we had been thru our ups and downs before. It has been over a year and a half and it kills me that my husband can go through every day and not think of it. He can just pretend it never happened. I know he is truly sorry but I can’t find it in my heart to truly forgive him. I have so much anger. I have begged Jesus to let me let go of the past yet I feel my prayers go unheard. I feel like I still don’t know the hole truth. I feel like Jesus has told me their is more for my husband to tell me. I believe out of shame and fear that he won’t tell me the truth. I feel so empty. I don’t even know if I even love my husband any more. Please pray for me that Jesus will comfort me and either way if I stay or go I just want to be able to forgive my husband and move forward instead of dwelling on the past. I have never felt so much pain and betrayal which has brought me closer to God yet I feel like I have no hope.

  19. Am still listening for His specific direction, but doors and windows are closing left and right. Will sing His praise in the hallway while waiting for His guidance. It is refreshing to learn there is a period He uses for cleansing, refinement, and growth before giving us specifics!

  20. “Trust Him with your path and your tomorrows. Allow His grace and love to decide what your mission should look like”. Oh my goodness…..your message spoke directly to my heart. As a woman who found herself at 46 years old facing what I believed to be the shame of sexual abuse as a child, God has lovingly met me in the midst of what I thought was long ago buried, He has removed my shame and brought life to a 25 year marriage I never dreamed I deserved or was possible! He has met me right in the midst of being of 46 year old stuck in a sexual mindset of a confused 9 year old. For the past several months He has been impressing on my heart to share this story so other women and marriages might experience freedom and joy of sex as God meant it to be. I continually make excuses….not enough time, no idea how to go about sharing, no opportunity, and the list goes on. Your posting has given me a deep knowing that the time will become available, the sharing will appear and the opportunity will arise…..if I just listen and obey. Thank you!

  21. Thank you for writing this post—I felt it was written for me. I have too many fears and I just realized that I may have closed my heart and mind to what the LORD wants for me because I have been too afraid to take even the tiniest step outside of my comfort zone. Please pray for me.

  22. Thanks for the Empowerment Gwen. My story may be different from yours because I didn’t have an abortion, but there has been alot of pain and emotional, verbal abuse in my life since I was growing up as a little girl and even after marriage. It kinda warped my thinking and as such I know the spiritual gifts god has in me but have been disobedient to his calling for fear of what others may think. I tend to stand back in the shadows and let others do their thing. But I am free in Jesus Name and ready to work. Thanks again…..Empowered to Minister for Christ.

  23. I opened and read this and I was one of the people it was meant for. My marriage of 17 years has been in a constant state of struggle for the last two years. I have tried to be prayerful and maintain faith that this difficult time will pass, but have just felt overwhelmed with the burdens that are taking their toll on our marriage.

    I too had an unplanned pregnancy when I was young, but decided to get married and tried to work it out. Unfortunately, it ended up being 3 years of abuse (mostly verbal), isolation from everyone who loved me, and manipulation and control on my life that left a wagon load of scars. The only wonderful thing that came out of it was my oldest child who has been a huge blessing in my life.

    I met and married another wonderful man and we have two children together (one of them special needs) that I love dearly. My husband is a Desert Storm veteran, who in the last couple of years, has struggled with a myriad of issues that are associated with his military service. He has been without a job for the last year and a half, but by the grace of God and His provision, we have not lost our home.

    I feel as if God has bigger plans for me, but because I have been unable to completely rid myself of scars of the past, and the current stress and hardship, I end up falling back into the the old thoughts, and fear of being unworthy.

    Thank you for being obedient to His will for your life and sharing it. Your story really touched me today and gives me hope for complete healing and a future of success for God’s plan for my life.

  24. Thank you so much for sharing these good thoughts. This encouraged me greatly! Last year I left a church of people I dearly loved — simply because the pastor and his wife continually reminded me how I could not be used of God because of things in my past. Oddly enough, they had similar things in their own pasts, but wouldn’t afford me the grace or the time to let God work and bring about healing and restoration. But I’m happy to say that God rescued me from that situation and now I’m in a body of believers who operate in grace and love and who seek to follow God. What a blessing! Your words here reminded me that God truly does have a plan for each of us and its a miracle how He shapes our brokenness into beauty. Thank you for the reminder of this <3

    1. Trish, I am glad to hear you left your old church full of legalism. God wants you to be free and fully used to grow his kingdom. He uses many of the mistakes we have made in the past. Reading the Bible we see this in David, the adulter; Paul, the murderer of christians; Moses who also murdered;Rahab, a prostitute, and many more examples. God is a God of grace and I am glad to hear you found a church home that exhibits his grace.

      1. Thank you, Barbara 🙂 I’m grateful to God for the journey He’s leading me on. I appreciated your encouraging comment <3

  25. Just last night as I was falling asleep, I was reminded of Moses, of how he had taken things into his own hands, ended up killing someone, and running into the desert away from it all, for 40 years. He had no idea that God had big plans for him, but obviously he lived those 40 years knowing God, because he was ready for God’s call when the time came. Even if he did think himself ill-equipped for the task. You can imagine my surprise and delight to find this message in my inbox from a close friend of mine. Thank you so much!

    I awoke this morning with my little grandson on my mind. I remembered my children’s younger years, when I found myself reading them Bible stories and as a result growing in the Lord with them. I bought them little toys at the Christian book store with Bible verses on them. I collected Christian videos and games for them as they grew. I taught Sunday School and Vacation Bible School on occasion, considered home schooling, and even tried Christian schooling. How, I wondered, might my grandson’s life be immersed in God’s ways, when I’m now a grandmother, and not his mother? I don’t know how that will work out, but I’m trusting God with it. I was ready to get out of bed as I remembered God’s promises in Exodus 20:5

    “I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.”

    I’ve always taken comfort in this verse, and in my prayers continually ask God that the generations that come from me would love Him and be known as His, especially to that third or fourth generation that I might live to see. I’m concerned for a particular son of mine, but I believe God is acting on his behalf, and I’ve asked friends to keep my son in prayer. God deals with us individually where we’re at, so I know in His time and in just the right way He will care for my son. Just as He will my grandson. And as He did me.

  26. What a wonderful message! Thank you for sharing. I am at a point in my life where I am re-inventing myself and wondering what God wants me to do. I love your statement “stand up to the burning bush.” I feel like I am standing up and now don’t know what to do! I have had several divorces and am on my way to another one. Christ found me (and changed my life forever – broke the pattern of angry women in my family) in the midst of divorce number 3 and I tried to stay married to that man and just couldn’t. Now, I’m close to divorce #4 and wonder why I keep marrying the wrong men. Husband #4 is not Christian and I find myself feeling so alone because we do not share the same beliefs about life; the Lord and the reason He put us here – to serve. My spiritual journey is the only thing getting me through each day as I wonder and know that there is something out there I am supposed to do in His name…

  27. Thanks for being brave and living free so other can see what God will do with our brokenness.
    I was a child who walked through violent abuse and because I could not bear to live with the knowledge my mind set those memories aside so I could survive. Years later I would also take my child’s life but because of the nature of the abortion procedure the experience was too great for me to live through and I wound up in a mental hospital. I was not aware of my past life even then and just tried to recover from the abortion and deal with what I had done. Then at a suicidal moment I found Christ….He took me in and saved me from death…literally. Eventually I would have a breakdown and remember everything and this year has been one of discovering more deeply the healing God has planned for me and wondering how God can use my life after so much had been buried in the sand and was now fully uncovered…God is at work to use even me perhaps….for the freedom of others who have walked through what I have also done and experienced.

  28. I’m the woman who had a Christian ministry and when my world fell apart and my marriage from his infidelity … I gave up hope. And during that time another man took my body and used it while I was asleep on cold meds and pain killers. Now I have 3 children, and a new baby with no dad and because I was known well enough…a lot of condemnation from the christian circles I had so recently been the center of. It takes a lot of guts for me to leave the house everyday and face people. God has looked after my past, and I’m trying so hard to trust Him for my future. I also hear Him say he has a purpose in all that’s happened. To be a light to other women who are unrightfully ashamed of their pasts. To provide a sanctuary, a place of listening ears where christian women can go or call when they are at their lowest…so they don’t end up in the wrong place with the wrong people like I did. But their are enough days I’m still cowering with my own wounds I don’t feel qualified just like Moses.

    1. I cherish John 8:11 “Neither do I condemn you…” and Romans 8:1 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus…” Certainly, we are not to forget the “go and sin no more” and the instruction to “walk after the Spirit” which follows, but walk in the freedom of Christ and His grace as you allow HIM to heal your wounds.

  29. I love this message. I too had an abortion right before my first year of college. The pain I felt took a long time to go away, only to show up when there is a death of a child. I took the pain and turned it into something more powerful, an message to females who tell me they want to do the same thing. Furthermore the event opened my mouth to the understanding of how the tongue is like a sword, and even though i was a child (6 at the time) i condemned someone for having a child out of wedlock, only to be her age 12 yrs later facing the reality of what i was going to do. I sought out that person to send an apology to her which also started out my healing.

  30. Thank you for this. I had an abortion shortly after I had my now 11 year old daughter, and for about two years, I just could not forgive myself. I kept having nightmares, and one time in the 600th or so time that I was asking God to forgive me, He gave me an epiphany…He forgave me the very first time I asked him to, as I was getting up from the table I was laying on to have the procedure done. Who was I to think MY forgiveness mattered more than His???

    I have a different situation now. Before I even had my kids (we have a 7 year old son, as well), I was on the worship team at church, but I stepped down before I could be asked to, because I wasn’t comfortable being a worship leader and my life wasn’t right. I know, though, that is where God wants me to be. I gotta tell you though, God uses us even when we don’t think we’re worthy. Truth is, none of us are except for the blood of Jesus.

    He has used me to minister to women who have dealt with the guilt and shame of abortion. He’s used me to point people back to him who’d been far from him for a long time. He’s used me inspite of me, because as unworthy as I am of my own volition, He has enough worthiness for the whole world. He makes up for the ick in me and fills it with him. Thanks for reminding me of that. ♥

  31. I know you are writing with Sisters in Christ in mind. I saw the grace your quote, “Broken can be beautiful when Grace sings the melody.” by a dear Christian sister and followed the link to your site. It was not an accident or by chance that I happened this site. The Lord has been impressing this particular story of Moses on my mind and heart for a couple of years. I will act on that story and what I know the Lord is calling me to do.
    Just one other thing:
    Honestly, men need this type of blog post, just as our sisters do. There just are enough bloggers out there writing grace messages such as this for men. Maybe, that is something else I need to do! Pray for me in this endeavor!

  32. Thank you for your faithfulness to God, and for allowing Him to use you to bring encouragement, love, and the truth to others. I feel so “stuck”, that God is not using or blessing our (my husband and I) ministry. We feel so unworthy, and need fresh eyes and heart, and a believing heart to follow HIm as Moses did. We need His direction in a wilderness where we cannot see His plan to serve Him. Our church seems stagnant, no visitors, and a dying membership. I watch my husband with a broken heart, because He feels as if he is failing, and failing God.
    thank you for your prayers.

  33. Thank you for this, and thank God for you. It speaks directly to what I’ve been struggling with — a doubt and fear that have kept me from moving beyond my mistakes into the plans He has for me. Please join me in praying for clear direction for the decisions that are before me, and that I would grow in courage and confidence of His unfailing love for me. Thank you and God bless all who share their hearts here.

  34. Could you just pray for me? There is so much pain and shame in my heart and I just need Gods grace. I want to fully embrace His Grace but I find it difficult to see me through His eyes. It seems that I can only focus on my wrongs. I’ve prayed for deliverance of my sins but somehow I just do them over and over again. I’m afraid His grace for me is going to stop.

    1. Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that our Girlfriend in God who is seeking your grace would know this very moment that you’ve never left her, never forsaken her, and never stopped loving her. Lord, I’m so thankful that your grace is not temporary but that your love endures forever. Lord, when we struggle with sin, we know that you are there to touch our hearts and that your kindness — not your wrath — is what brings us to repentance and chance. I pray that this young woman would be surrounded by another Godly woman with whom she can be honest with about her struggles and see how she can experience true freedom and deliverance. I thank you that there is no condemnation in you, Father, and that you have given us the power to overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. I pray that she begins to speak your grace and deliverance over her life from this day forward. I pray that she would stand on this promise from Isaiah 43… That you are doing a new thing and that she will be able to walk in the deliverance you have for her. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.
      “For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.”

      1. Isn’t God wonderfull. I was just reading Isaiah 43 because of yesterdays post of Girlfriends in God. Thank you for your reply. It touched my heart. You prayed what I’ve been praying for. And I believe God listened!

  35. I will definitely be pondering this one. Just today I was lamenting my past, that I hated it, there has been so much more bad than good and the way things stand now, I just don’t see a future. God has had me on a shelf for so long that just to keep my faith in Him is the daily struggle. That consumes enough of me that there isn’t time for dreams. They have all been systematically dashed, whether by my hand or someone else’s, just like my past. I was responsible for much of the carnage, and there was freedom in accepting that, but it makes it no less painful that my past contains so much awfulness in it and that I am alone today as a result of some very flawed past decisions. I am thankful for you and what you do, and many of the things you write strike a chord with me.

  36. “Trust Him with your past and with your tomorrow’s”. That line really struck a cord in my heart. That line helped me with the freedom that I’ve needed. That line just brought healing to my broken heart and hurtful past. Thank you so much for that Gwen. God bless you and thank you for being bold and obedient for sharing your story.

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